Five years ago, in the jungle in Nicaragua, I experienced the most profound healing of my life.
I released decades of pent up rage, grief, and sadness.
I connected the dots on so many events in my life that had never made sense.
I felt the gentle touch of my sister’s hand on my heart.
I felt love for myself and humanity like I never had before.
(AND I had the most glorious natural high that felt like being stoned on the Universe!)
I didn’t drink, eat or smoke anything. No one touched me. This happened with my body, my spirit, my breath and source energy. This was Breathwork.
I had been an acupuncturist and herbalist since 2010. I’d been on my own healing journey since my teenage years. But I was stuck without even knowing I was stuck.
I was stuck because I thought that where I was, was all there was.
I thought I had done “the work” because I’d read all the books. Went to all the workshops. Received a ton of healing sessions.
I had made it through the loss of my sister. I had tough conversations with both of my parents about the wounds that were created in my childhood. I dealt with fallout from addiction and alcoholism with both my dad and my brother. I found my way through the devastation of ending two different relationships with men that I had been in love with and thought I would marry who just weren’t the right guys. I was handling my co-dependency issues.
I had learned so much. I thought I felt pretty good.
But I had barely scratched the surface of my Emotional Body…the place where all the work hides out that no one wants to do.
I still struggled with dark and murky periods of depression.
I still numbed out with drinking, online shopping, and technology to distract myself from feelings that I didn’t know how to deal with.
I still had a hard time with setting boundaries and speaking up for my needs. I was terrified that if I did, that I would lose love and people would leave me.
I still held so much shame about being “sensitive” and “too emotional.”
I was still afraid of really being seen. I was okay with revealing the parts of myself that received love and approval but hid away the parts of me that I thought people wouldn’t like.
I was still anxious for weeks before I would visit my family because I knew I would be triggered beyond what I could handle.
I still felt lonely, weird, and unlovable more often than I would want to admit.
There was SO much that still hurt inside me.
Breathwork was the medicine.
Over time, it helped me peel all those layers of social and family conditioning. It helped me release “too much” and “not enough.” It helped me step strongly into my power as a teacher and a leader with a voice. It helped me let go of being a walking wound-always a victim, waiting for someone else to make it better. It gave me a way to move out all the anger, resentment, fear, and disappointment from my body. It helped me fill up from inside with self love and grace. It deepened my connection to my intuition, my creativity and my faith. It made me feel whole and not broken, probably for the first time in my life.
I want you to know that there is a way through your pain. That when you release the heartache from a lifetime of not feeling good enough, or unsupported, or not safe to be who you are, or feeling like you have to do it all on your own, or whatever may be torturing your soul, that life can get better than you can even imagine right now. That letting go of those core wounds and limiting beliefs can change the frequency you hold in your body and begin to invite in higher vibrational experiences and people.
That life can get a LOT more magical.
I know because it happened to me.
I would love to show you how.
Erin Telford is a Breathwork facilitator and healer, acupuncturist, Reiki Master, herbalist and a teacher of David Elliott's Level One Breathwork Healer Training. Her work guides people to look within, open their hearts and heal their relationship with themselves. Her one on one and group sessions empower her clients to connect to their innate wisdom so that they can find the answers they are looking for.
Erin believes that we all hold core wounds and limiting beliefs that subconsciously run our lives. When we somatically release them from the emotional body and the nervous system, there is freedom on the other side. Our emotions are messengers with information that let us know where to direct our healing and compassion. By de-stigmatizing emotions and the human experience, we can take shame off the table and start to really deal with what's under the depression, anxiety, and patterns that keep us contracted.
She has created Breathwork experiences for Free People, the Soul Cycle/Soul Legends retreat, In goop Health NYC and Wanderlust Festival. Her work has been featured in Shape Magazine, Nylon, NY Magazine, Well + Good, The Numinous and in Refinery 29 as one of “6 Women Who Are Redefining Wellness." She is currently on an intuitive, nomadic journey to connect with the Earth and write her first book.